What is My Motive?

What really is my motive? Why exactly am I serving God? Why do I wake up every morning and have my devotion with God? Why do I make an effort to read the word and stir up myself in the Lord whenever I'm feeling down? Why is it that spiritual growth is very important to me? Why do I ask God to prune me? Why do I genuinely want to be best I can ever be? Why don't I put myself in situations that will cause me to sin? Why have I decided to serve God with all my life?

I believe I'm at that stage where doing good is not the problem, not anymore, but I want to know why it is that I am choosing to do good. I remember when I served God because I believed that serving Him meant an easy life, boy was I wrong. Or that it meant I would achieve my purpose in life - this one is actually true. That I would be great, you know in terms of wealth, happiness, fame, etc. Then it became because I know He's capable of seeing through anything. From time to time my motive for serving Him would change. But lately I've been studying myself, learning about why I do certain things. I strongly believe motive is a very crucial aspect of my spiritual life. So I needed to make sure that things were right in this area. I should want to serve God because He deserves it all, simple and short. 

God deserves it all, that's all there is to it. So when things are not going well, my submission to God is not affected. I don't stop serving because He deserves it all regardless of how I am feeling. When it doesn't feel like I'm walking in my purpose, I still do what I am supposed to do. When I've known trials, struggles, etc. more than the supposed happy life, I still will serve Him! When I feel like He is far away from me, He still remains as God. I don't do good and then feel entitled to a reward, God is God and deserves more than my good. And if I choose not to serve Him, there are 24 elders in heaven, worshiping Him day and night, nonstop. My so-called righteousness is like a filthy rag before Him (Isaiah 54:6). 

This is one thing I am currently drilling into my head, God is sovereign! My feelings, attitude, situation, the time of the day, the weather, hunger, people's attitude/behavior, whatever it is, should not hinder my willingness to serve Him. Period.
Check your motives and learn to genuinely want to worship God because He is God and deserves it all.


Stay Stellar!
Didi