The Comparison Game

Comparison; the act or instance of comparing (estimating, measuring, or noting the similarity or dissimilarity between).

Do you ever just... Have you ever found yourself comparing yourself to others? It's real out here man, especially in this period in my life. Graduation is fast approaching, people are getting into graduate school, everyone is making moves. Looks like I'm the only one who is stagnant..  Like what in the world is going on? Why did she get that and not me? Why didn't they call me for that? Even this girl I'm supposedly better than (Lord help me) is getting opportunities left and right. When will my own time come? I'm trying to understand God what is the purpose of right now? I don't seem to be moving anywhere; things are not working out. How am I suppose to trust you if there's nothing to trust you about this season?

Can I just be real with y'all? The seed of comparison and envy have been pulling on me real hard lately. The beginning months of this year have been so unfruitful (at least by my judgement) that it has me questioning God from time to time and I wonder if anyone else is on the same boat as me. I love the Bible y'all and I'm about to unpack every verse that reminds me that I am relevant, that God is not done with me and that I need to trust Him even in this season. Because at the end of the day the word of God is my only weapon.

"You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed." - Psalm 139:16
God knows every single day of my life even before they played out. His hand is in this moment.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." - Jeremiah 29:11

"Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you." - 1 Peter 2:9

"And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them." - Romans 8:28

"For we dare not make ourselves of the number, or compare ourselves with some that commend themselves: but they measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing themselves among themselves, are not wise." - 2 Corinthians 10:12

After you have fed on these verses, I encourage you to reduce your social media presence. You have a higher tendency to compare yourself with others when you spend a lot of time viewing other people's lives. Post and leave, you can delete the app until you have something to post again. Also begin to focus on the things that are going well in your life even if it is one thing; hold onto that and do it diligently. Thirdly, rejoice with people who are rejoicing, ask God for genuine happiness so you can celebrate with them without having an envious heart and stop thinking you're better than anyone. Lastly, your time is coming, if God has said, He will do it.

"God is not a man, so he does not lie. He is not human, so he does not change his mind. - Numbers 23:19

"You want what you don’t have, so you scheme and kill to get it. You are jealous of what others have, but you can’t get it, so you fight and wage war to take it away from them. Yet you don’t have what you want because you don’t ask God for it." - James 4:2

Rest in His will for you, God got you.

PS: I started making video journals to document the stages I'm going through in this year. It's been a lot of low moments but I can't wait to see how great this year will turn. We will reap this fruit of this moment.